Dost vost and all that crap
So there was a new girl in d organization..now I don’t go out of d way to make friends..but am friendly with people..neways this preety girl has chosen me for a friend. And day n night she talks of friendship ..she uses words like’one can do nething for friends’ friends r to cherish’..made me guilty made me really think what I had done with my friends..why were they not close by me…I must b a really bad friend…so I thought n thought………….well my truly good friends…not d way I have heard of it or how its shown on tv..but ppl I truly liked..n who truly liked me are in various cities n busy with their lives…if we meet we will b delighted to …but its not sumthing that we can carry on over mail or phone….so we all are happy n remember each other with fondness. So where r those friends who rember u r birthday drool over u,n do all those things they show on tv in films,if im a good person..i should have proof of it..in form of friends…who ‘just drop over’ cause they were missing me..who r chatty wid my mom n….where r those friends on whose shoulders im supposed to cry…I don’t have any!!!!
Lets reanalyze..the ones I was truly fond of….i nvr shared any grief wid them..cause thr wasn’t ne…and they ..ya they shared n we laughed over it and everything was all right..they were strong people..they didn’t weep floods of tear..they didn’t cry their eyes out n so I never offerd my shoulder. So I wasn’t a bad listner to them n they were great people who didn’t look for a soft ..’idont knowwat’ and everything was great between us. I love them n will always remember them fondly as im sure will they.
Now lets come to the second category of friends…………all of them were people who had seeked me out……and told me their grief n I had symphathysed..(though internally I disliked their weekness) and became their protector…I had never even thought of telling my problems to them……cause these problems I had not even told myself..like not getting a job or whatever……but these were people who repeated the mantra of ‘friends should share’,’friends r everything’(quite unlike d friends that I admire)…so I thought that maybe I was wrong somewhere..i had not ‘given’ n demanded..as much as I should have in a relationship. So I tried to become like them ,but when I demanded sumthing..i saw they wouldn’t give like they had taken,when I tried to give them my sorrows..they thought them as superficial..and didn’t just care for my sadness and when I finally recognized them for what they were……and they realized that I would not be a soft target for their lives miseries or their cunning they disappeared.
Now lets come back to this sweet ,preety girl ..she sings the song of friendship n I think she’s like me. So she gives me her philosophies of life n I give her mine. I am willing to listen to her point of view, im overjoyed to have someone to discuss my feeling with, someone to share my thoughts with and learn…maybe even she will learn something from me,hey I will tell her something about myself that no one knows..ya ill tell her about all the places I have visited when she asks , ill discuss with her my various experiences…we will discuss and grow….BUT HEY she dosent like to sit n chat with me anymore , she dsnt have time to have lunch with me..she is always busy over the weekends…and I must b d freest person on this earth..cause I seem to have a lot of time.
Why am I in so much pain,I cant believe she’s ignoring me…if others were ignoring me I wouldn’t be hurt ..so why does her actions hurt so much. Is it because of the few discussions we had and I didn’t AGREE to her point of view..but I wouldn’t have reacted in the same way..id have respected someone else having different thoughts. Is it because boss appreciated my work ,agreed id have been jealous too but id never have let it come between our friendship. I would have taken out time to return her calls..i mean this is the mobile era.
I HURT N HURT N HURT , till one day I realize ‘she’ is not ‘I’. I had been lyin to myself about this preety n sweet girl…..(that’s cause d good person that I am its hard to even admit to myself that people r not nice). So lets realize some facts about her…either im a totally judgemental person or…she just needed me to stand in her long list of admirers and agree to everything she said….under no circumstances..should I have given my own thoughts. About me ever hoping shed ask about my experiences………..when will she have time off from talking..to ever listen. NOW she would have still remained my friend had I been on a lesser footing than her on any department….then like a fairy godmother she’d have come n say “pal..it dsnt matter u cant have everything..”and would have rejoiced in her superiority ..but I never gave her even that chance.
The moment I realized this I was sooooooooooo happy I knew where she was coming from…I had given her place equalent of my opinion of myself..but no, whe was like everybody else in this world(I mean most of the people). Now there was no hate n no hurt but my heart was full of LOVE. I loved her now like I loved other fools and im a good one at pampering n indulging fools,all they demand is to to be told they were right, I do that all the time not out of any inferiority complex..but like..ur neighbours children….u show them love all the time after all they are not yours. Your own kids ..ud show anger n they will understand where there is anger n resentment ..there is love too.
So finally this troubling part of my life healed!!
\:D/
Lets reanalyze..the ones I was truly fond of….i nvr shared any grief wid them..cause thr wasn’t ne…and they ..ya they shared n we laughed over it and everything was all right..they were strong people..they didn’t weep floods of tear..they didn’t cry their eyes out n so I never offerd my shoulder. So I wasn’t a bad listner to them n they were great people who didn’t look for a soft ..’idont knowwat’ and everything was great between us. I love them n will always remember them fondly as im sure will they.
Now lets come to the second category of friends…………all of them were people who had seeked me out……and told me their grief n I had symphathysed..(though internally I disliked their weekness) and became their protector…I had never even thought of telling my problems to them……cause these problems I had not even told myself..like not getting a job or whatever……but these were people who repeated the mantra of ‘friends should share’,’friends r everything’(quite unlike d friends that I admire)…so I thought that maybe I was wrong somewhere..i had not ‘given’ n demanded..as much as I should have in a relationship. So I tried to become like them ,but when I demanded sumthing..i saw they wouldn’t give like they had taken,when I tried to give them my sorrows..they thought them as superficial..and didn’t just care for my sadness and when I finally recognized them for what they were……and they realized that I would not be a soft target for their lives miseries or their cunning they disappeared.
Now lets come back to this sweet ,preety girl ..she sings the song of friendship n I think she’s like me. So she gives me her philosophies of life n I give her mine. I am willing to listen to her point of view, im overjoyed to have someone to discuss my feeling with, someone to share my thoughts with and learn…maybe even she will learn something from me,hey I will tell her something about myself that no one knows..ya ill tell her about all the places I have visited when she asks , ill discuss with her my various experiences…we will discuss and grow….BUT HEY she dosent like to sit n chat with me anymore , she dsnt have time to have lunch with me..she is always busy over the weekends…and I must b d freest person on this earth..cause I seem to have a lot of time.
Why am I in so much pain,I cant believe she’s ignoring me…if others were ignoring me I wouldn’t be hurt ..so why does her actions hurt so much. Is it because of the few discussions we had and I didn’t AGREE to her point of view..but I wouldn’t have reacted in the same way..id have respected someone else having different thoughts. Is it because boss appreciated my work ,agreed id have been jealous too but id never have let it come between our friendship. I would have taken out time to return her calls..i mean this is the mobile era.
I HURT N HURT N HURT , till one day I realize ‘she’ is not ‘I’. I had been lyin to myself about this preety n sweet girl…..(that’s cause d good person that I am its hard to even admit to myself that people r not nice). So lets realize some facts about her…either im a totally judgemental person or…she just needed me to stand in her long list of admirers and agree to everything she said….under no circumstances..should I have given my own thoughts. About me ever hoping shed ask about my experiences………..when will she have time off from talking..to ever listen. NOW she would have still remained my friend had I been on a lesser footing than her on any department….then like a fairy godmother she’d have come n say “pal..it dsnt matter u cant have everything..”and would have rejoiced in her superiority ..but I never gave her even that chance.
The moment I realized this I was sooooooooooo happy I knew where she was coming from…I had given her place equalent of my opinion of myself..but no, whe was like everybody else in this world(I mean most of the people). Now there was no hate n no hurt but my heart was full of LOVE. I loved her now like I loved other fools and im a good one at pampering n indulging fools,all they demand is to to be told they were right, I do that all the time not out of any inferiority complex..but like..ur neighbours children….u show them love all the time after all they are not yours. Your own kids ..ud show anger n they will understand where there is anger n resentment ..there is love too.
So finally this troubling part of my life healed!!
\:D/
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